| Its funny how life works... Sometimes you can't expect anything right to happen...but honestly when can I ever expect anything right to happen for me...My life itself is an experimental failure..
How is it that the timing for me is never right? I always end up falling for people too late. Why must my personality be the one caring and sweet individual, yet still end up breaking hearts? Sometimes its the hearts that I want later that i end up breaking the worst.
I can't expect to ever be forgiven for breaking anyones heart.
My life is like a record that keeps skipping with me getting hurt in the same way as i always have.
I really do like you and I really am sorry for what happened in the past. I don't want you to hurt anymore. I wanted to make you happy, to make you forget that I hurt you. I wish I never hurt you, it might have ended my chance of any happiness for awhile. *Sigh* Just staring in your eyes made me feel happy. Now your eyes are closed to mine. My smile is locked away behind this curtain of self hate...
LOVE is always been a funny word...its interesting how its thrown around like pennies. I don't believe love is something that is easy to find but when its found no one should let it go....
I wish I could change your mind. I wish those feelings were still there.. but I guess what I wish never actually matters in life...
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| hmm interesting...love is...i found love..just i hope it doesnt leave...that would suck..ahh im so happy rite now...hmm...BLAH HAPPY hmm.. |
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| ...smoking(me as in myself) ...hurting people ...getting hurt ...feeling liek i don't deserve the things i get ...stupid ppl at concerts ...not being able to really trust anyone |
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| ... Waking up when its raining ...people ASSUMING i hate them ...not living on campus ...9:30 classes that are boring ...having to stay on campus and not have a place to sleep ...indecisive people on relationships ...knowing something but choosing not to believe it ...Hypocrites.... |
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| So People usually kno i dont get drunk or i dont get high. Well thats my choice. I dont care if other people do. Fine what ever their choice. Ill drink when i want to. But i wont get DRUNK..thats kinda STUPID i actually liek remembering my nites and having control of what i do. For instance i dont wanna have kissed someone and not member it but have friends ask me bout it. THAT DOESNT MAKE ME DUMB! Getting High..eh no not for me..see ppl screw up their lives because of that. hmm I kno one thats kin to me that doesnt really do ne thing ne more cuz of that. Thats not my style...again i have fun without that..thats how i roll...call be dumb call me stupid..but sry ur a fucking retard! |
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